17 days and counting and then....

Their are certain times in my life where I feel like I am totally frustrated with things and things just don't seem like they are going right. Right now is one of those times. Things just feel unsettled. I think it may be because we are on summer break and we have all been taking things easy. I am ready for some organization and schedules and routine. I want to totally rip my house apart and clean it from top to bottom. I want to repaint everything and organize every closet in my house. I want to have my day scheduled out for me and know what to expect each and every day. I want to wake up early every morning and go running with Mike and be showered and ready before the kids wake up. So why is that when the alarm goes off in the morning, everything changes. I have no desire or motivation to move out of my comfy warm bed. I have every reason why I should and deserve to stay in bed another hour, running through my head. Once I do get out of bed I forget about all those things that I "wanted" to do. Why is it that some people are blessed with such great organizational and motivational skills? Why can't I just have a small portion of someones skill for this? Anyway my point is I have been frustrated lately most of it due to my lack of organizational skills. Some of it do to the fact the kids have been out of school for a LONG time. I just really should have never gotten out of bed in the first place today, but since I did, I'm gonna let out some of my frustrations.

*Why does it seem like the laundry NEVER EVER ends? I think I just finished folding all the laundry from last week and now I need to get started on laundry for this week. Not to mention Kade slipped a Pull-up into the laundry load. Do you know what kind of mess that created??? I only had to rewash everything about 3 times. I need to figure out a better system cause this ain't working for me.

*Why do I bother trying to use coupons? Without fail their is some small print exception to why you can't use them. Yesterday I spent an hour at the grocery store stocking up on food, that I thought was a good deal, just to be told I need to read the fine print. HELLO! In the end I just had to return the stuff I purchased and they said to come back a different day to buy it. Like I have time for that. I had the same thing happen to me last week with coupons. I had my cart totally stocked up on cereal, rang it all up in 7 different transactions (so the coupon would work) just to find out I couldn't use the other coupon I planned on using.

* I feel like summer vacation has lasted FOREVER + a day and we just found out that the kids summer vacation has now been extended by another 7 days because their school won't be ready. I was counting down we only had 17 more days left of summer vacation now we are up to 24. Kids are back in school, we are out of ideas of things to do, I think we've had enough of each other, the kids for some reason don't find it "FUN" to help me with chores, We are all done! Brayden even asked if it would be ok if he went back to his old school just until his new school started, then he would switch. It's sad when the kids are even asking if they can go back to school. I really have had a good time with the kids this summer, but really don't all good things need to come to an end sometime.

* Do all kids at the age of 8 like to throw fits? I thought kids were supposed to out grow this when they were 3. I am so tired of dealing with pouting. I'm seriously considering obedience school....it's working for my dad's dog. And if I have to put out one more argument between the kids I'm gonna scream!

*I hate speaking up for things that bother me. I hate being taken advantage of. I hate losing control of a situation. But yet I don't have the backbone to stand up and stick up for myself, so I get stuck doing things that I don't want to do.

Even though I feel like I am slowly going insane, I am truly trying to find the best in each day. Yesterday on our way to the grocery store we noticed something different about the temple, so we stopped on over to see what was going on. Moroni was missing off the top of the temple. We got there just in time to see them lifting him back up to the top. They had taken him down to clean up the lightening damage that had happened a couple months ago.

It was so neat sitting there and watching it all happen. It was nice to have a moment to sit and relax and take in a moment of peace and reflect on the big picture of things. It's fun to see the excitement in my kids eyes over things like this.

Hopefully today I can remember to seek out the good and happy moments. I can't let the bad moments override these because then I make myself miserable. Hopefully I can make today a better day:)